Once Was Lost, Now I'm Found

Now that the secret is out, I want to hide somewhere in a tree or go away on a far away vacation to deal with my emotions.

Since announcing Christmas Day that my family found me, I have received many messages from my supporters and my biological family. I am very overwhelmed as I knew I would be, just as I was the first day I heard from them. Let's face it, there is no way to fully be prepared for this moment. I appreciate the love I have been receiving from my family, but the feeling that I am like or was a big secret, or the new surprise makes me feel a bit not human. I feel some time of way. Imagine someone hiding you somewhere for years and then they take you out to show the world. As I mentioned in the video I have a really big beautiful family, but when I made my announcement yesterday I was inundated with so many friend request from family members I never new about. I just can't see to fathom how I will get to know everyone. I know it is like any other situation, "one day at a time". However, when this is something you have been waiting all of your life for you want the answers now. You want everything to magically fall into place. I guess I pictured my reunion to be a fairy tale story, not to say it isn't. But this is more difficult than I ever imagined. All these people want to talk, meet me, and get to know me. I kind of feel important, not like Obama or anything (laughs) just important. I want to be there for them as they have expressed the same for me. However, I learned while I was in Seattle at the AFAAD gathering how important it is to practice self-care as we cope with being adopted and beong "found". I have no idea where I would be without my AFAAD family. In the coming weeks I will share more about my experience in Seattle. It was a powerful day I will aways remember.

I really just wanted to thank you all for being there for me. When I first found out about my family finding me  I documented everything on videos and recorded calls that I will later share with you all. It is important to me to share with you all that are adopted and coping with the similar issues or know someone that is in hopes to help someone get through this very difficult emotional process. As I encourage you, I encourage myself to get through this time. I don't have all the answers right now, but I believe when the time is right I will be at peace. Be strong and never give up hope.

Stay tuned for the Which Way Is Home Tour  in the next couple months as I travel to meet my family state to state and then to Puerto Rico. I am thankful to not have to go through this alone, and know that my supporters are right here with me. Just for the record, my thoughts are not meant to ever offend anyone. These post are my thoughts as a real life adoptee. No secrets. I am very thankful for the gift I have been blessed with, and even though I am overwhelmed it does not mean I do not want to hear from you. Your love, words, and thoughts keep me going. Thank you again.

P.S Pardon my absence here and there. I may need some time...

Love,
Muzik

For my father and my mother have forsaken me, but the Lord will take me in -Psalm 27:10